It's okay to be an artist. It's okay to say what you are feeling in a way that no one seems to understand. Who do you need to understand you, but the God who created you for His own purpose? So be only who He wishes you to be. Be artistic, capture beauty, and love without any conditions at all. Accept that you are imperfect, and worship the One who is Perfection. Follow in the footsteps of the One who saved you. Let His hands move your feet, let your words glorify Him. And if no one understands that, let it be.