It's raining outside. As opposed to inside, which I guess is good.
That was so cheesy. I'm sorry.
Rainy days make me feel especially productive, so I sit down with my laptop, planner, and notebooks and other productive things like pens and pencils
...and I watch re-runs of Gilmore Girls. It's great, really.
I've been thinking lately about the fact that most of my blog entries end in a definite conclusion which makes it seem like I've figured it all out.
Figured it out? Me? That's funny. I'm not interested in putting all of my personal troubles out on the internet for the world to see, but I'm willing to shout it from the mountaintops that I am not perfect.
The thing is that today is actually the first day this semester that I haven't been stressed out enough to cry at any given point of the day. I wish that was an exaggeration, but it is not. I've been worrying so much about grades, projects, music lessons, etc. that I have often been anxious to the point of physical sickness.
I went to bed early last night and got a lot more sleep than I'm used to. That's probably a lot of why I'm feeling so great today. Before I went to sleep, though, I prayed my nightly prayer for justice and the end of modern-day slavery (find out more about that here). Then, as I dozed off, I added something else. In my sleepy state, I prayed (in words far less eloquent) that God would take my hurt, broken, anxious heart and turn it into something beautiful.
He's good at that.
You see, God took that simple cry for help and answered it today. Despite the fact that all of the reasons for my stress yesterday still exist today, I feel more peaceful.
- "And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?" -Matthew 6:30
- Why did I have so little faith?
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