Waiting.

I have decided, I have resolved to wait upon You, Lord
My Rock and Redeemer, Shield and Reward- I'll wait upon You, Lord
As surely as the sun will rise, You'll come to us, certain as the dawn appears.
You'll come, let your glory fall as You respond to us
Spirit, rain, flood into our thirsty hearts again
You'll come, You'll come.

This song has been stuck in my head all day- due, I'm sure, to the fact that it was the first song we sang in church this morning.  It's one of my favorites.  The music alone is enough to capture me in a state of complete worship, but the lyrics are what really get me.

"I have resolved to wait upon You, Lord."

Oh, I needed to hear those words sung to my heart this morning.  Despite my passionate words about trusting God, I still have a tendency to jump the gun in almost every situation.  I take control too soon.  God opens a door, and I run through it, telling Him to stay behind while I show off my ability to handle what He's given me perfectly.

The thing is, it doesn't work that way.  I don't have an ability to handle what He's given me- perfectly or otherwise.  He never intended for me to.  He never wants me to do anything on my own.

I was hit with that realization a few days ago as I sat at a table in my favorite coffee shop, talking to one of my closest friends.  I had asked her for advice about a situation that I had found myself in that week which was new for me and stressing me out quite a bit.  Her advice was sound and I was, and am, extremely thankful for her words of wisdom.  However, I was also kicking myself for needing that advice.  I told myself that I should have already known most of what she had been telling me, and I shouldn't have been so foolish.

Then I realized what was really happening there.  Iron sharpens iron.  Two are better than one.  My humiliation about not being able to handle that situation well without the advice of my friend spoke to nothing but my foolish pride.  Now, I thank God for placing friends in my life who can speak godly wisdom into my life when my discernment is lacking.

I think I need to slow down, and wait upon the Lord instead of constantly jumping ahead to where He has not yet guided me.  And in those times when I doubt myself, and fear that I am not doing enough on my own, remember, "I have resolved to wait upon You, Lord."

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

~Psalm 27:14~